As difficult as the inability to know everything, figure out everything, and understand everything is, I guess I wouldn’t trade life’s mysteries for anything. It’s the mysteries that stretch us as we puzzle our way through them. I’m determined to do that now, instead of pretend they’re not there, or try to escape them. I really want to be wholly present to myself! It’s way more fulfilling to live this way.
Last night I was lying in bed, meditating before I went to sleep because I was experiencing a good amount of emotional pain. As I lay there, my mind flitting around and lighting on this thought or that and moving down, down, down – my spirit growing stiller – it suddenly occurred to me that there was something I could do to alleviate my own pain while at the same time offer a listening ear to others. I thought of starting a website.
I know, I already have three, but this one would be entirely anonymous and specific in content, available only to people who in their despair type specific words in the search bar, as I’ve done in the past. I couldn’t find just the right help when I was hurting, and would have benefited greatly from a place to tell my story. I’m actually quietly excited about starting this, and am going to spend time today – really, as long as it takes – thinking it through and putting it together.
I absolutely love that ideas can pop up out of nowhere and feel so “aha!” I’m grateful to believe again that I am being guided through my life, and that I’m not flailing around out here alone.
Oh, and also, the school called this morning and gave me the information I had been asking for! I’ll head down there this week to get everything sorted so I can, hopefully, start in the fall. Cool beans.
I hope everyone has a great Monday. I think we’re going to head downtown today to tour the ships that dock on the waterfront every year before the Rose Parade. I love ships. I’ve never sailed but hope with all my heart I can someday. Love you guys. kiss!
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Why, I think that website idea is perfectly lovely.
I saw my mistake on FB this morning… :) You’re NOT going to be without internet! Yay! Just cable, which isn’t nearly important. Nowhere NEAR. Whew.
Thankee, Twi. Of course, as I monkeyed with it, I could see that it wasn’t going to work the way I’d hoped. I need a forum, really, but am too internet-backward to figure out how to add the plug-in to my blog. Furthermore, I tried Googling the title of the blog and didn’t get anywhere near it, as there were about a million entries that used those particular words. Anyway, it’s okay. I did it, so we’ll see what happens with it, if anything.
Don’t leave us! sigh. xo
Sounds like a great idea.
If you want any www help give me a shout and I’ll be more than willing to see what I can figure out. Or you could go with a free forum hosting yoke, like this ‘un http://www.forumotion.com/ (I have never used it, it was simply the first google result)
Thank you for the offer, Fency. I might take you up on that! I’ll let you know. I checked online for a few free hosting sites, but even the so-called easiest user ones were too involved for me and used too many abbreviations and acronyms and html codes, and I just don’t know that much. ANYWAY. Thank you for being willing to help! :)
I glanced through that link and it looks pretty good! Maybe even easy enough for me to use! Yay! I’ll give you a shout if I can’t figure something out.